Remembrances and Ruminations

NIck and Trout's Going Away Bash! in Toledo August 20th

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 18:12:18 GMT

August 20th, 2005
at Clearwater Quarry
4601 Genoa Rd
Perrysburg, OH 43551

12:00-1:00 *TBA*
1:00-2:00 Funkin 28 (Breaks)
2:00-3:00 Rob Sample (House)
3:00-4:00 Nick Dollaz (Rock/Funk/Party Music)
4:00-5:00 Alastair (RaggaDrum'n'JungleBassMuzik)
5:00-6:00 DJ Rana (Trance)
6:00-7:00 Rob Sample (Top 40 Hip-Hop) word.
7:00-8:00 Proficey (Live Hip-Hop)
8:00-9:00 *BAND TBA*
9:00-11:00 Silver Spine (Rock Band)
11:00-12:00 Music Quites

** Normal daytime quarry entrance fee still applies. **
I believe it's $3.50 (you can swim if you want..) free after about 7pm.

HERE IT IS PEOPLE MAY 14th TOLEDO OHIO!!!! be there and see STACEY KIDD

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 05:41:24 GMT

New Yorks Alright (If You Like Saxaphones)

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 17:43:03 GMT

leaving for New York in a few Hours...cant wait be back sunday hells ya no sleep till brooklyn ill be the only living boy in new york

link yo

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 07:54:37 GMT

didnt work i think so oh well im up so late im always up late...thinkin about putting some of my writing up on here but i probably will not so ha

Join this now says jappy

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 06:25:31 GMT

some nick swartz art

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 05:49:29 GMT

A couple pieces i did back in high school, and the only art(i think) of mine on have scanned

OIL PASTEL entitled "Wicklow Woman"

COMPUTER altered version of the OIL PAstel

tired

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 14:25:17 GMT

death be to all 8 am classes...the new Beck album comes out today

oh me oh my

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 06:12:50 GMT

bored bored tired...i really have nothing to say except that I am going to the big NYC for the weekend and staying in some flat in the east village, roof top parties are planned, got rekids to pick up so anyone know of any parties going on in New york this weekend besides Joker's Wild on Friday?, ..................---oooo and i cant wait to see sin city on Friday

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 06:56:45 GMT

so after close to ayear i have returned...to promote
VIVA LA COLLECTIVE in toledo was the dopest party around and the next one is coming soon May 14th be their bitches...lineup soon

who cares

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 19:04:04 GMT

need to restructure my life. everything is changing. need to regain interest in the most innate activities.

holy makinrow Lollapalooza 2004 lineup!!

Tue, 04 May 2004 03:19:10 GMT

Day 1 Morrissey, Sonic Youth!, PJ Harvey *, Le Tigre, Modest Mouse!, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Von Bondies, Broken Social Scene, The Walkmen, Wolf Eyes, Danger Mouse, Datsuns, Sparta, DJ Peretz
Day 2 String Cheese Incident, Flaming Lips, Gomez, Polyphonic Spree, The Thrills, Fire Theft, The Coup, Sound Tribe Sector 9, Elbow, Wheat, DJ Peretz

sell my soul...i just wan tto rock 'n' roll...through the (w)hole

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 10:08:43 GMT

innebriation..-women are the entarptresses of all great control devices...i shoudnt have drove home but i couldnt stay there-i wanted to-so desperately-but i have this sense that what is wanted on my end is no the same as what as wanted on the other end--love is lost, love is lorn, pain is strewn, and what left over shall be born...am i at the pure state...my most truthful, direct to the conciousness state when i am intoxicated... i havent the slightest recolection...so much in my life is fucked up and its mostly my fault...everything is moving so fast and i cant keep up and soon it may, and might as well, all crash down upon us. ?ever invest yourself into something so fully, making desperate attempts to do your best and fully succeed on some highter avalon, an amazing level to try and prove yourself and then realize you have no idea why you are doing it, what you are doing there, what your final goal is, or what the future (that is considering there is a future for me [or you]) will hold. stuck in total desperation and unrelenting, uneasy, wondering.

I love livin in the city...so lets have a WAR

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 04:21:34 GMT

monday nights are lonely as hell. FEAR on the television...a riot has broken out onstage before a single note wa played. I am a recetitive creature, habbits die hard, i wish to die bold...pathetic elements of mellowdrama have faded and i feel empty, apathetic to the cause but so empathetic to myself for be such a pain enducing being. i thought is was exactly what i wanted or what i didnt want and ive gotten what i wanted...but like {i suppose} a first hit of good junk i got a taste and thrive for more desperately desperate

notice that her vaginal region is constructed entirely of "HIV"

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 06:33:11 GMT

http://www.textfiles.com/art/angela.art

re-institution

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 08:07:31 GMT

fuck musicians. fuck spirit killers. fuck the mongers and pill poppers.

hip imps of perverse despair

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 07:20:54 GMT

should i be angry...maybee if i was fully invested...am i angry not so much...do i have a right to be no...not at all, not after what was said and what wasnt satisfied...things have sort of been taken care of...i hope the inspiration will not die...i must resume my status as a hip wandering poser

its what gets you there, bring a spare

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 08:52:30 GMT

ill attempts, post tramatic elements...ive wasted milla-moments on the continuum-left over side dishes from the sleeless night over rest--fueled my visions once a fucking gain--i havent shared or expressed that which i should yet--those certain insecurities i prod at until they become raw--those inept invitations of a situation gone a wry--maybee the permanent nostalgia of solitude will subseed to exist one of the fateful days past--the intake and outake that i keep only for my troubles my nervous system-but that is just me-i am a loley to myslef person-i dont let it all out all the time-shrouded-its the way i was raised, what i was taught-transfered-, i keep it in and it festers to one day be channeled as a creative entitiy-dont loath my pretentiuos self reliant, self contained nature, i love the product, but value the process so much more

mein devil es thoughless and daring

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 10:01:04 GMT

simply the rest of us, smolter with the best of us, the breaking mold may be the test of us, the empty bodies are left to rust n crust,,,silver apendages arethe open leave bearing made and torn for those of the wearing--my toes musnt look down, they can not stop staring some kind of devil beams through mein--hes thoughtless a daring.

inevitably--the wise cracking wolf wunders when the steam will float

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 08:46:55 GMT

i still feel the splendor-american-not likely-hopefully the day will come and pass as i spend my days in a daze passed out in a field of grass surrounded by the concrete abyss--copulated and sealed off free of the paranoic, claustrophobia once felt, feared, and then disregarded by those who wunder, those wish wish to steal an urge and splurge the mind with thought provoking possibilites, they wunder the wise wolf of dawn--so long away and always forgotten--will make his last crack towards the moon...most dont know what i mean-its all fine-everythin is alright-neither do i lie without telling a deeper truth nor to i belive what i contrive from the empty nest--heroin may be addiction of poets but poets are inately addicted to lust. when the world finally implodes the poet, the thinker who contrives devious plans to kill every last withering cell and send the floating and fighting in, full of contradictions, an icy hell. if you stop now, listin to all that is arrogant and self-righteous and finally hear that innevitable bell.

my window is foggy, the locks rusted over, stuck shut on myslef -implement Im an sorta ass

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 09:18:07 GMT

am i so damn narcissistic and self depreciating that the once contained excesses of irreperable insanity have for once lept from my dry shoulders and landed on those of others, of another...am i relivied SHOuld I be- no and not---i too lie confused as the others---i although tend to entangle my own mind and am not yet kept in the totum with the damages i do...i try to an empathizer, to exemplify the other desires and trap them in my skull...i hate the fact that i now feel dead inside and apathetic to the least.of.least.appropriate situations..no i dont..if i did would not feel the urge to vent, to etablish my bridge before the fall of lent. i need to not be such a wallowing little pussy, hahaha not funny...i dunno what i want.i wish to be to free, more than anyone should be. i get what i want, what i want is never enough...im such a lame head case...fear a bullshit nic[he]...i need to resolve issuse eventully and stop being so vague. do i think i come off as paradoxal and intriguing-not even a falsified half-truth resideing in a valley of lost and forgotten inosence___

written in haze of daze--disregard the irrelevent sludge i spew oooooo what few are meant to do

hmm lament not regret ponder (by definition the same...in my mind i dunno)

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 06:07:56 GMT

im rather conflicted right now. i tend to bitch and wine about life being boring, well life has got a little more interesting, and well,...i dunno.

justification that life is worth it from time to timeEnergenicNeutralEuphoria

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 21:21:56 GMT

march 28 2004-party fun..i had originally expected this party to be huge and, in some ways it was, i was beligerent but wont forget. im in an odd mindstate...one i have never experienced on such an inescapable level...its not bad, its just sort of odd--changed. surreal unexpected euphoric lush attitude stapling shut a void of such an ample magnitude--booze fueled control. the push the pull---the forces externel swell, yet i am fine i meditate, i mediate, i rest my mind and body, i sit and dwell

impossible motives from the buds of the lotus

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 09:51:11 GMT

drove around most of the early morn--meant to score some and tag some but the rain came down and and the lotus blossumed---corny shit from a tired soul DE la-ha good morning

depreciation of athe soul_-_'

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 07:54:06 GMT

my mind wanders. lately i am completely and utterly bored. BORED with everything...school, work, TV, patying, and at times (even) art and music...in a general sense life. WERES the mix up. i have these dillusions that its just the area, just Toledo...but its not that true...sure other cities have so much more to offer, but in time monotany will set in and the fealing that there is nothing else to do, absolutely nothing more to be accomplished...on a grand scale WHAT really is there that has yet to be accomplished...at least in my fields of intereset its all been done (if i were smart i would cash in on the sure things, but that god damn artist integrity bullshit tends to come creeping back, back, in my back-up my spline, [the tormentuos lead cord for those isuferable swine]. besides the desperate epoch of persistent self depreciation-THE YEARS TICK BY, Im ONly 18...yet i feel like i may have accomplished and seen so much more than my 63 year old grandfather...a sort of self-imposed shut in-smokey haze world i see in the(my) future. again...forget the introspection and return to the impulses-the sensorry-the now [[[[the past is irrelevent and subjective--relevent to who wrote the particualr book--and the futuer is non existent yet inescapible]]].......the itch it returns, in this current mind state-i need to leave- i lust once more for new york and the optimized romantisized illusions i have of the city. i havent been there sense my momentous, spur of the moment trip last fall, fuled on sleep deprivation and ambition vibrations of indistructable life ad vigor-perhaps vigor for life...this time i simply need escape--im lookin at the weekend of abril 16-18 or as soon as i take my last exam...all i need now is 1 or 2 paychecks and a passenger or 2.

entovision piss no LISON MIA POW gonna grow AMPHETIMINES fester the spleen UPDATED FOR SPELLIN ERORS

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 10:13:08 GMT

i have this neurosis. i dont know. inablilities. insecurities. dependencies. i need people yet wallow in my lonely times.----tonight: Erin came over and brought 2 six packs with her. Just HER. argh. a perfect situation one would expect, assume. except for me...im to much of an over anylitical, cerebral mainiacal, empathizer to "put the moves" on anyone...goddamn if i was any other guy i would have gotten laid and be asleep with her or somebody right now in embrace in my bed---splendor-lendor-of exhuberent--pleasure--that of which -is not contained--or expelled--or reccessed--on any (0ne) certain measure--time to pass out but cant.._- FUCK INSOMNIA!! im on my own CYt0plasmic outrage! schedule! time copulates and emancipates unknown freedoms that we, as mere humans, tend to be trapped in, in the drastic trend the devasting conclusion laced with nostalgia and lament. Forget.